You Reap What You Sow

Remember what I said in my previous blog entry about getting lazy this quarter? Well guess what it did pay off. It backfired and I hate it very much. There are a lot of could haves and should haves and tons of ifs. Well  one surely does reap what he sows and it sucks. I never learned @_@ .... It's like I always have to experience the worst things before I learn. I know it's wrong but then one does not change overnight I'm sure. I still have to learn and I pretty much think that I'm getting there. 

Conclusion for the first quarter would be: yes I might have made really stupid mistakes but then that's not the reason to give up is it? So bring it one second quarter. I have my goals now; hit me with your hardest blows I heck will fight back.  XD (This sounds so unrealistic and full of unnecessary drama but that's the way I express it.)

:) Smile Always :)

Booyah!

HOW CAN I?

                                

These past days, in fact these past weeks I have felt very lazy in fact until now. I do not really know the reason why but I feel so lazy. Maybe it's the new atmosphere or maybe it's the system that I need to adjust to or maybe it's simply me. If I just could, honestly I wouldn't care about my laziness after all it's been a while since I was not this lazy; however it has been my grades and my performance that is getting affected and I don't want that, absolutely not! I know I should change but it's difficult just to be real. It's easy to just slack off but difficult to stir the ship when it feels so good. But I have to and it has to start with "why?". Maybe it's how I thought of the teachers this year that makes me lazy. Whenever a teacher looks at me I feel like they think ill of me or that they question me of my abilities or what the hell am I capable of. I know it sounds absurd and it's just paranoia but then it's really how I felt during the first days; especially with the female teachers. No offense and I'm not stereo typing but that's just honesty right there. Anyway I still feel lazy but then I know sooner one of these days I will be able to get back in track. Can I? I just hope I really can. 

The Book Thief

                                              
DAMN it's been quite a while ever since I last opened my account and I do miss blogging. Well that's perhaps because of a very boring summer that I am currently experiencing, You know what they say about making thing's fun and all that but then you see I am not so good at that so the result is a very customary and hmmm yah boring summer. Anyway you might be wondering why the hell I made the title "The Book Thief" and please be patient with me here but I'll get there don't worry. Chillax :)

As I was saying there's nothing very special or rather fun in this "summer vacation" (I put those quotation marks because as you might see it really isn't summer) so as I usually do when I'm bored, I read. I read around 3-4 books already and yes that's pretty slow pace but somehow I'm gettin a bit faster, although being fast doesn't really matter much. You just gotta enjoy reading. Right now I'm reading this book Catcher in the Rye and it is actually cool and pretty damn nice especially the way it was written because it was written in the first person point of view and I'm a really huge fan of it especially that that's the way I write. I know some people do not like the way I write but then I'll get there; I still haven't read the book my teacher gave me haha maybe after Catcher in the Rye I dunno. Anyway like what I said I'm reading Catcher in the Rye but then that's not the main thing here but the book prior to that (I still sort of feel a tingle whenever I use 'prior') which is The Book Thief. Usually I finish a book in around a day or two depending on the length and my mood. However after reading Holes, which is a really good book too, I got stuck with The Book Thief and that's not because it's kinda lengthy and all that nor because I'm not into the book because it's a really good book that I have to look at all the words that I do not understand. I'm like that when I like a book hehehe...

The above paragraphs were supposed to be posted like a month ago or two but got lazy so yeah haha just now. Anyway I finished The Book Thief already and so far it's in on the top of my favourite books list. Hmmmm it's been a while really since I opened my blogger anyway welcome back to me and I sort of look forward to blogging again..if I got the time. READ THE BOOK THIEF! IT'S AWESOME (to me)

 :)

Smile Always :)

There Are No Boundaries!!!

So this blog entry is and isn't just for extra credit. This blog entry is to show what the movie Alive showed me. First of all the movie was a good movie; I'd say if the goal was to inspire its viewers then they will surely succeed but then it could have been better if we saw the whole movie, by that I mean even the night scenes oh which I think was really relevant to the story. So as I was saying this blog entry is to show what the movie taught me as an individual and it's no never ever give up no matter what. 16 survivors out of 45, that's a pretty big number already if you would consider the things and the experiences they had to go through, but that 16 would have not been possible if it weren't for their will to actually live despite the impossibilities. To me the strongest message of the story, among all other messages, is to never give up and always have hope. You see those young men aren't even adult enough, they are merely but students, rugby players who turned out to be part to be a catastrophe. Their lives, young lives, were put in peril and sure danger, even sure death but all these they overcame. They were stuck for more than 2 months and yet because they wanted to live they did. If I would be in that situation I'd say there's but a few percentage that I would live because I'm not as strong as them. This story goes with everything in life. There may be times wherein life throws a big punch, a punch that was made with a full swing. But then what? Do we stay on the ground and cry like babies? Do I let it get the best out of me? Answer is HELL NO! I am in no position to do such. Those 16 survivors had the worst of life they they managed to make up their mind and hit it back, hit life back so hard they won. 

My life isn't as adventurous as theirs, it may not be as dangerous as those 16 men but then every now and then life may throw in some stupid things right in my face but then there's no damn reason to not hit back. Everything is a test and life is the biggest, a compilation of all the tests. It sucks, I know it does; but then that won'y stop me. I won't let it get the best of me. Life is  a bitch, but no matter how hard and how many times it slaps me I'm going to fight back. I'm going to face what is ahead and whats laid right in front with all courage and determination, like those 16 men. I will live my life the way it should and I'm going to give life a damn good fight. :)

                                      

:) Smile Always :)

"I LOVE my adviser!"

So this past week it was a bit of a sad...hmmm sad doesn't fit really...this past week was not so happy and not really sad but it was the week of being slapped in the face that the like it or not the school year is about to end. Well all endings are beginnings...it just sucks that when  you are having fun already like you're enjoying what the school year has to offer because you wasted, well not really, almost two quarters on something that was not really worth the time and the effort. It was the week of cramming all the things that has to be done and sadly there are a lot things that still needs to be accomplished still. This week was the payment of all the procrastination that I've been exercising. Well there is no time to remorse about the wasted time; I just have to not waste time anymore and use every single time wisely. 

So that was my week a week for all the requirements and the end if everything...and the start of new things..

:) Smile Always :)

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U think that's it???!!! HAHAHA I would not write such a title if this blog entry is not something really special :D

So also this past week we had our teachers appreciation and all the grade levels had something for their advisers and so did grade 9. We gave our precious and well-deserved adviser a portrait that im sorry was fatter than truth..seriously. I guess it was because we rushed the artist. Normally they said the minimum for a charcoal portrait is 3 days but we asked him to do it for less than a day and half. haha Oh well it was pretty good better than mine..(i tried sketching miss's face but it sucks..u can even ask mika...hahaha!!) Anyway that wasn't everything that we had because we or rather panda made a video about miss Mae and it's a really good video. I had some words included in it but the whole video panda did it. Also I included a letter inside the portrait of which I strictly instructed to read it when she is sad but she did not listen..tsk tsk tsk..or did she? Because from what I heard she was kind of pissed and maybe sad but I don't really know :P 

Anyway I gave my lovely adviser a message and it wasn't even written in a special paper neither was it written nicely but in my ugly handwriting. To sum it up and to not repeat what I've written Miss Mae.. "I just want to thank you yet again and I won't get tired saying it,  for all the fun and the bad part. I was a real pessimist and I still am but because of you that got a bit less. Thanks for teaching me to care and that life is much more fun if you will just do something about it. We sure will part ways but I tell you, you are the best teacher I've ever had. Swearing is bad I do swear you are. You will always be my and our SEXY, LOVING, FUNNY, AND OH SO CARING TEACHER :D Love you and Happy Mother's Day as you have been our second mother. 

Not all endings are sad but all beginnings are endings :)

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Acceptance.

I was fixing my papers and works from past grades and I saw this work of mine from Grade 7 and it's 'bout my personality; got  a 98 for it. But that was not the thing that got my attention. Below the paper I saw my teacher's comment and it was interesting. It said that "why do you hate yourself?". Reading that got me wondering for quite some time. That was like 2 years ago already. Things change and maybe I did....I don't really know. 

There are a lot of things that I wish that I wasn't yet I am. Guess that is normal as no one is perfect and its free to wish. Even the most perfect and most ideal person that we look up to got some things that they never really wanted. I think I hated myself because I want to change some things in myself. Maybe that time I wanted to be someone I was not. Maybe I thought that time I need a whole change-up; maybe from  my appearance to my character. If I was just there when I wrote that essay I'd probably sock myself. That was a stupid thing to write. Why? Because I can never have everything I want. That's the damn truth. There are many things that I got that others don't and that is damn enough to be thankful. Why hate yourself ? Life may be a bitch but always be proud and thankful for who the you are. 

That was two years ago. Things have had changed and I guess, though little by little, I did. There are a lot of things we wished we have or we are that just can't happen and its up to us if we'd pursue that wish you have or not. But the point is never ever hate yourself; don't hate who you are rather love it and cherish it. Now if you're a bad guy then that's a different blog entry but still you gotta love and just accept who you damn are.  Hate leads to nothing but acceptance, that's the road to happiness (well not really but that's a different story). Be happy with what you have and who you are, then you will learn to appreciate even the simplest of things. You'll learn to appreciate and maybe even love the people around you that you never really care 'bout. It all starts there, in your mind and in your heart. "You'll never appreciate the things life has to offer if you can't even appreciate what you are". Acceptance, simply complicated yet it makes a difference. 

But the thing is...I never fully learned that ^_^

:) Smile Always :)

Tim's List: Indoctrination vs Education

I was thinking of making a different blog entry but then I saw the option number 3 and the questions somehow connect to my supposedly topic so here it goes.

Indoctrination and education, whats the difference? Are they not the same? Answer is nope they are not the same. There is I'd say a  fine line that connects these two ideas; both of them kind of come to the idea of teaching. However indoctrination and education have major differences as well apart from their similarities. Both are used to teach specific ideas and knowledge to any one possible but most of the time indoctrination has a negative connotation and education a much more positive one. 

By definition they are pretty much alike and so it might be easier to actually understand the two ideas by their differences. Education by definition is imparting or acquiring knowledge; in short its pretty much learning and teaching. Indoctrination on the other is like that as well but the differences come in the way they are done. in education there is a vast ocean of knowledge where in one could learn and there is no limit to that; anyone can be educated anything. In contrast indoctrination is pretty much limited. The people who indoctrinate limit the knowledge that a person is supposed to learn and this is because they want only their ideas to be accepted. That's their first difference. Secondly in education not everything is good. There are some things that we might not like yet are still presented to us and that's because education is supposed to be not subjective to ones liking only but rather to the readied curriculum. Education has a system and not everyone may like. Same goes with indoctrination, it has a system but then unlike education the ideas that are presented are made to satisfy the people's wants. Most of the time in indoctrination the ideas are presented in a way that it appeals to a person's likes. The ideas are said and presented as if they are the best. They appeal to someone's preferences and also to emotions. In short, indoctrination is really one-sided and education not really, although there are certain instances that it is. There are several differences between indoctrination and education but these are the main ones. 

Now the topic does not end there. So now the differences have been laid, what then happens if indoctrination is used? Answer is people learn, then believe, then blindly obey. Since indoctrination tries to teach things that are not necessarily correct to the minds of young people, actually anyone, in the way they would like it, these subjects then obey what they are taught. They believe that these ideas are correct, unquestionably true. So with these ideas their lives are based on and most of the time the ideas are not even correct. It is good that a child obeys that he/she is taught but then there are certain things that a child is taught, that are not true and correct. A good example would be Hitler during World War 2. Hitler used indoctrination in his campaign to killing the Jews. He set up Nazi schools to teach the young Germans about his ideas which are not really correct. Everything was subjected to his ideas; that Germany was the most glorious country, and the most  destructive one was that they taught kids races ending up that the Nazi race was the most superior ones and the Jews the least. At a young age of 6 kids were already indoctrinated and because of this they simply obey. It didn't matter if what they were obeying was right generally but as long as it's their beliefs. Indoctrination promotes or results to blind obedience and not the real obedience. Obedience is doing what you are told but then only if it's the right thing. Real obedience usually comes with education as we have choices and its not limited to only one idea; but with indoctrination comes blind obedience: one only obeys because it was believed to be true and correct when in fact it hardly is. Obeying isn't always the right thing to do especially if what one is told to do is wrong, which in Schindler's List's instance is genocide or murder of Jews.

Indoctrination has a lot of negative things with it and personally it isn't the type of learning I would recommend. Education is still the best way to learn and impart knowledge. Not at all times we are asked to do what is right but we can always make a choice to do what is right regardless of the price we would have to pay in doing so. Everyone has a choice. 

:) Smile Always :) 

Happy :D....almost

This past week is the second to the last week before the finals and this week is also the cramming week. There are toooo many things to do most of them are projects. I have to finish our newspaper and with that I am almost done but there are still tons, literally, that needs to be done.


Anyway so much for a negative approach for the week; this week also we had a bunch of long tests. It's been raining tests these past days. Fortunately I'm getting good grades and though with some exams it could have been better, I'm still happy with the outcome. Sometimes I gotta be content :) actually most of the time. Also this past Friday I was able to watch my second PBA game and its a finals game WOOOH! but sad part is we had to sit in the general admission because the tickets were all sold-out. Anyway though I got really bad eyes i was still able to enjoy especially because TalknText won; but still I don't care much about what the results will be because I'm a Petron fan and am just waiting for the next conference. Still it was really fun to be part of game 6 because if we weren't there (I was with Renzo, Miss Mae, and Jf) the 20,534 attendance wouldn't be made possible. It was so much fun watching the game. :)


Now all the things that has happened in the past week sounds all positive doesn't it? But too bad just last night got into a fight with my mom and up to now were still trying to work it out for the best. Excluding that everything was nice this past week. 


:) Smile Always :) 


But can't...

A Word To Eradicate

Discrimination has been a big problem ever since the onset of the society. One might object me in that idea as they would say that there was no clear discrimination that happened during the pre-historic ages but guess what discrimination isn't just by skin color. Long before women were already taken or were seen lowly by the men and this is a form discrimination. Discrimination can and may revolve on almost anything including these really obvious ones:

-race

-skin color

-gender

- financial status

-looks 

-Intelligence

These are just some of the reasons discrimination exists in the society and there are way a lot more if one would be really profound. For example in school the kids who are not considered "cool" are not treated as they should be; or those who are not as smart as the others, are treated indifferently. However this is not something that we just give up upon just because it is almost impossible to remove it from the society; we can do something about this still. One word to achieve the seemingly Utopian society that we want, RESPECT. We just need to respect other people regardless of what they may be. 

These videos might help and I hope after watching them you make up your mind to make a move onto actually helping removing discrimination not just in the school but in the society. 

Make your decision. It's never too-late.

:) Smile Always :)

A Trip That's Never To Forget

LUCBAN, QUEZON TRIP :D :D :D







Very early in the morning we went to school. In the photo we had our mini assembly and so far by record the earliest assembly.

After 3 long hours of being in the bus, at last we reached Batis Aramin.  

          

Picture First :)    

 
Before the activities we had to undergo an orientation.


                                                           
And yes Sir John was in the orientation; in fact he was in-charge of orienting us.


ACTIVITIES




  The Activities now started :)



   
JF had a pretty difficult time looking for our flag. 


  
We got a bit bored waiting so uhmm picture-taking!! :)




 
 I KNOW THAT'S ME!!! Rappelling, our first activity. 







      


We finished Rappelling, Zip-line and Wall-Climbing. The activities were fun !!!          
                               

My adorable teachers :). They're so funny and cute in this picture haha :)






GAMES THAT TURNED OUT TO BE A COMPETITION WITH OTHER GRADE LEVELS


     


First was having to cross the web of ropes without touching it. Honestly I found that activity boring and irrelevant but somehow it was fun.  :)



The second activity was trying to put some balls from a can to another using only ropes, without having to spill them. Though I didn't play in that activity I really felt the game.





Third activity was having to pass a really big ball without having to drop it using only a net. 
In the picture JF was sort of trapped in the net bwahahaha.







The third and last and most irritating activity was having to put water in a PVC pipe with tons of holes, up to the top. Everyone got wet as it was really difficult to actually fill the pipe.







After the Activities we enjoyed our lunch. It wasn't really really good but it was good to eat. :)


SWIMMING TIME!!!!


  


 
       Miss Mae and Sir Lyle together with my classmates.






     
This was when we were at the pool playing a game. The game was that we have to catch the tail of the other team :)
                           
After swimming and before going home we saw this really cold "waterfall" and took some pics. By the way the water was really really cold. 







I think after that day I learned how to swim already although I'm not really sure. Anyway the Field Trip was really really fun :)

Batis Aramin and Avengers

Tests? Seatwork? Class discussions? What's  this past week made of? Well its a little bit of everything as usual. It's ironic how I see each week as uniquely different from the rest but then I describe it like there's nothing really  different in each. Anyway like what I said the week was still pretty much school centered and as much as I remembered we had one long test in social and a couple of quizzes in other subjects; and also we have tons of projects that need to be finished and I really don't know how I will finish all of them but we'll see about that. 

Now enough of the casual things and on to the I'd say much more interesting and unique part of the week. This Friday, April 27, we went to an educational field trip and it was not sooooo great but it was fun. For our field trip we went to Batis Aramin in Lucban, Quezon. Going there required great effort really because we had to wake up really early and in my case I almost did not sleep; also the road we took going there is zig-zag and I was at the back so I felt really really dizzy and so to lessen it I had to sort of sleep. When I woke up first thing I saw was the mountain, Mt. Banahaw and it was near from the place. Also the place as I expected it was good facilities wise (exclude the shower rooms) and the place itself was really uhmm inviting? It was smelled so fresh as a rural would,  unlike the city where we came from which is sooo polluted. 

At first we had our orientation by Sir John [coincidece :) ]. After that we had another orientation and then finally we did the activities. We did a 50 feet rappel, zip-line, wall climbing and a bunch of other activities. (Until now I'm debating with myself if the rappel was really 50 ft). After that we had lunch and it was pretty good. Then came the fun part, well not really, SWIMMING! I am really not into swimming as I do not know how but after that day I think I know now how to swim. Oh just to add the water was really really cold. It was so cold even though its like 1 or 12 in the afternoon. 

Going home everyone was pretty much tired and the bus was kind of silent as everyone was sleeping;but then after a few hours people started waking up and talking. The bus ride going home was really fun. I didn't know Sung Jic was that funny and it seems like he's not even trying to make us laugh. He really is like Song Chan. When I reached home I fixed my bag and went strait to bed and slept for I think 12-13 hours; had to catch up with the lack of sleep. 

     

Also yesterday, Saturday, I went to atc to watch avengers but then all of the tickets are sold out. So we ended up splitting up. Jerry and his house mates went home :( while miss Mae, me, Renzo, Sung Jic, Tony, and Mika went to festival hoping we can watch avengers there. Fortunately there were still tickets for the avengers. The movie I'd say wasn't the movie of the year but it was good. Also before hulk was like the last hero on my list but after watching avengers he's now number one! He's soo cool and funny hahaha! All in all the movie was good and a must-watch for me. Going home it was really late and yet again Sung Jic was not loosing energy just by speaking and he did make the day more fun also alongside with the rest of the people who came. 

                                                        

To sum up the whole past week was really not bad in fact I'd say it was really good. I know the week ahead would not be as fun but we'll see about that. 

:) Smile Always :)

Pay Phone

This is a new song by Maroon 5 ft Wiz Kalifa and they are soo good! I love this song mainly because of the idea of the song itself. If one knows me well you'd understand why I love this song. This song basically like "read my mind". Enjoy singing and it really really is a good song :)

 I'm at a payphone trying to call home

All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember,
The people we used to be...
It's even harder to picture,
That you're not here next to me.

You say it's too late to make it,
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist,
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit
One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.

Oh, you turned your back on tomorrow
'Cause you forgot yesterday.
I gave you my love to borrow,
But you just gave it away.

You can't expect me to be fine,
I don't expect you to care
I know I've said it before,
But all of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist,
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit
One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.

Now I'm at a payphone

[Wiz Khalifa]
Man, fuck that shit
I'll be out spending all this money
While you're sitting round wondering
Why it wasn't you who came up from nothing,
Made it from the bottom
Now when you see me I'm stunning,
And all of my cars start with a push of a button

Telling me the chances I blew up
Or whatever you call it,
Switch the number to my phone
So you never could call it,
Don't need my name on my show,
You can tell it I'm ballin.

Swish, what a shame could have got picked
Had a really good game but you missed your last shot
So you talk about who you see at the top
Or what you could have saw but sad to say it's over for.
Phantom pulled up valet open doors
Wiz like go away, got what you was looking for
Now it's me who they want, so you can go and take
that little piece of shit with you.

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist,
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit
One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.

Now I'm at a payphone...

I will live life moving forward; but I'm bring my past with me! :) 

:) Smile Always

 

AMPLIFIED!! uhhh not really :)

                                                                          

                                                        

PROM

This past week was a pretty much fun and extraordinary week. It was I would say a one-of-a-kind experience and that is because for the first time I was part of the prom. Yeheeey.......yeah right its fun....hahaha. So this past week it was pretty boring because I don't know the things happening in class are pretty uhmm customary and if it was not customary  it goes over the limit. My adviser could attest to that :) 

      

Anyway lets cut the academic aspect of school as of the moment and focus on the rather "fun" side of the school life (I'm not saying the academic or the customary part of the school life such as the class work and discussions are boring). In lieu to what I just said was the prom. One general statement I'd give it would be that it was uhmm very much a not so fun event as I thought it would. This general statement are then subjected according to certain reasons: as to what I saw and...uhhhh..personal reasons haha!  Yet although I say that it wasn't I was expecting the event was still kind of fun. There were a lot of performances like the whole event (haha!) so it was pretty much uhmm music-inclined. Oh I forgot we performed and it was our wreck of Teenage Dream and like what I just said it was a wreck; there are a lot of reasons as to why it sucked like really sucked but yeah it was a wreck. Anyway next year if ever we have to perform again I promise I'd give it time and do really well but as of now it sucked! 

     

Aside from the performances there was also uhhhh...wait I'm thinkin'...uhhhh what else? Hahaha oh yeah the food. I'd say it wasn't soooo good but it was nice. Also there was the prom king, queen, prince, princess and as far as I remember only Mika made it. Oh well I think the prom king and queen thing was a little too unfair because as I see  it the people who win or actually won are those that are sort of famous school-wide, when it should've been the prettiest or the most handsome looking. Anyway I was just saying that part of the prom was a little unfair for those who are quiet shy and not as famous as the rest but really good looking or pretty. ( Why am I criticizing the prom?!! ugghh) 

     

To sum up all of the things that I said all the criticisms and comments I'd say the prom was good, not the best I think but I did have fun and I think that matters most. My expectations may, yeah, have not been met generally speaking and personally speaking (so much for asking someone hahaha!) but I'm just  one among a hundred or so and if they had fun I'd say the prom was a success. There is still one more year to improve on things and I think even the most impossible things would be accomplished if you will perceive in your min that you actually could and not just see it and plan it but act upon it. I'll work on my uhmm mistakes? But yeah I'm living my life going forward not backward. 

(I do not know why I sound so criticizing and uhmm "deep" on some thoughts but yeah that's what I think of the prom) IT WAS FUN :)

:) Smile Always :)

#somuchforaskingsomeone

hahahaha!!!! :P

12:51

This song is entitled 12:51 by Krissy and Ericka and I find this song really really cute; by coincidence the music video is set in the PNR station. HAHAHA suddenly I remembered the trip yesterday going to Binondo. We rode the PNR courtesy of sir Lyle and it was my first experience riding it. Before I would see it pass by and I'd think it's really crappy however I was wrong. The train was not crappy; it was not rusty as I usually see it. However the ride was really hmmm I really can't find the right adjective. It was a one of a kind experice! The train was a real roller coaster I'd say much worse 'cause it sways from side to side and it seems like just one strong wind from whatever direction, the train will crash hahaha!! But then that is not the real deal; the main issue is the air! I thought all trains have aircons but PNR does not! Its so hot inside especially going back home;   I can't even breathe well. Also there were different kinds of funky smells. We were so cramped inside like sardines and yet more people kept on coming in! Actually I'd say sardines have more space than we did! 

It was a hell of an experience but all things deserve a first. Anyway I guess if I want Extreme experince I'd go back and ride it again haha.. Enjoy the song I find it really cute.. :)

Lyrics

Scrolling through my cellphone for the 20th time today 

Reading that text you sent me again 

Though I memorized it anyway

It was an afternoon in December

When it reminded you of the day

When we bumped into each other 

But you didn't say hi cause I looked away 

And maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life

And maybe I haven't moved on since that night

Cause it's 12:51 and I thought my feelings were gone 

But I'm lying on my bed, thinking of you again

And the moon shines so bright, but I gotta dry these tears tonight 

Cause you're moving on and I'm not that strong to hold on any longer 

Oh oh oh oh... 

Then I saw you with her

Didn't think you'd find another

And the world just seemed to crash

Shouldn't have thought this would last

And maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life

And maybe I haven't moved on since that night

Cause it's 12:51 and I thought my feelings were gone

But I'm lying on my bed, thinking of you again

And the moon shines so bright, but I gotta dry these tears tonight

Cause you're moving on and I'm not that strong to hold on any longer

As the sky outside gets brighter

And my eyes begin to tire

I'm slowly drowning 

In memories of him

And I know it shouldn't matter

As my heart begins to shatter

I'm left to wonder

Just how it should have been... yeah... 

12:51 and I thought my feelings were gone

But I'm lying on my bed, I'm not thinking of you again

And the moon shines so bright, but I gotta dry these tears tonight

Cause you're moving on and I'm not that strong to hold on

Cause I'll prove you wrong that I can move on through this song

So much stronger

Ooohhhh....

A Week Before the Prom

This past week it was I would say the week to shake all the vacation mode in me because time never waits for someone. Day by day it will get harder, easier, more fun maybe worse, but I'm pretty sure in one way or another it will be fun. It may be not our definition of fun but I'm sure it will. (Optimistic much :D )

So like what I said vacation is over and this past week is the week we had to go back to school and first thing I realized or maybe told myself, "hey brown monkey go get your a** working or else you'll suffer". So yeah the school was back and things were back to the normal; there were lessons, seat works, etc. Everything is back to the normal....but me. Honestly the first day of school this past week all that I was thinking were 2 things, souvenirs and uhhhhhhhh souvenirs :) I had this deal with someone 'bout souvenir exchanges and I really had a hard time finding one and was not really confident about, not at all actually so the first days of the week all I was thinking was about that. Well it somehow was a mess at first but I think it did turn out well. 

Also 'side from that one big news is the prom this coming Thursday. At first everyone did not really care but as days pass by though its minute there are changes 'about how grade 9 thinks of prom. Things were going well during the week but sad thing is grade 9 won't be complete during prom. I really really want grade 9 to complete 'cause I think it will be fun but yeah I don't think it will so I guess we'll have to exert more effort to make it fun. 

It was a I'd say an okay week and honestly this week or maybe these past days I'm getting pissed of myself and I really do not know why but anyway that's normal. I wish for a great week ahead and I hope prom turns out well. 

:) Smile Always :)

I Think So..but Do You?

                              
The other day somebody sent me this random text message and it said, emotions do not die because we feed it with memories and with that's the reason why people can not move on regardless of what the event is. Personally I really agree with this not because I am experiencing it firsthand or I have had experienced it but because of how true and evident it is. Before I would hear a lot of stories 'bout really horrible events in almost anywhere I go, almost any source, almost all of the aspects of life, breakups, family, school, name it I probably have heard of it. Every time I would hear of those horrible things and see people suffer from it and how they could not move on from the incident I would always ask myself, "Why on earth can't they just forget?". You see I always have asked myself that every single time I would hear of how one could not simply move on from an incident....until it came to me. There are a lot of things life would offer and sometimes its freely given and one of those freely given things, though we like to take it or not, is pain. We experience all the negativity of life almost everyday and sometimes we even ask ourselves why did it have to happen; why do we need to keep experiencing all the heartaches in life, in family, in love, in school, in work, whatever it is...why? And you see as people keep on experiencing these things over and over again sometimes much worse than it was at first people get traumatized and therefore do not forget. I have realized that people do not actually forget because first and foremost we keep on feeding it with memories. A weed though how badly you want it to die it would not die if you keep on feeding or supplying it with the things it actually needs. Now same goes with life, if we actually want to forget something yet we never actually forget tlhe memories that are weaved together with it, we actually would have a really hard time forgetting that sometimes it will feel like we actually have never moved on. But then this way of thinking isn't new to me because I have had thought of this like over a thousand times until I realized how stupid it is to actually think that people can just forget and things will go easy and it will be the start of something new. Screw you if you think of that...life's much more complicated than it seems and more often than not we say lets make life simple but then you ought to choose the right time to because if you say that make life simple you are missing totally a huge huge part of your life. We say forgive and forget and that's a fruit of us thinking that we must make life simple and yes it is simple but then simple would not suffice the understanding that we need to comprehend as to why people could not forget. 


When one is hungry and does not have money to buy food that person would at one point say that he/she must forget the hunger but that hunger would be felt by him/her making it hard to actually forget it or take it in the least consideration. Also when one is tired yet that person needs to finish something; it would be easy to say to just forget the tediousness of the work and go on but in reality it is difficult. These are some analogies that would explain why we find it hard to forget things especially those traumatizing ones. We can not forget events simply because at one point or another you are still connected to it and though no matter how bad you want to forget and escape from it you couldn't. People have the nature of playing safe that they always think of the "ifs" much more than the now. We always take into consideration that at one point things will change and go our way that's why we do not cut our connections to something totally; this is one reason people do not forget. We simply find it hard to GIVE UP SOMETHING. 


There are a lot of things people can not forget but like what I said in the begging of this entry I just found the text message interesting and somehow I want to give my thoughts about it and maybe get some insights from others.No matter hard things would, no matter how hard it is to forget  we can always choose to smile; it may not be through the lips or the eyes or any outward appearance but smiling would always help.




:) Smile Always :)

Easter..

Its been more than a week since I last held a computer well not really but yeah it's been a while since I've made a blog entry and that is due to the vacation. I went to Quezon last week and that was somehow onel of the reasons why it took me until now to actually do my homework. So as I was saying this blog entry is all about the things that have had happened the past week which as the title suggests is Easter. 

During the Easter break so many things happened. At first my vacation week, as I would call it was nothin' but school only difference is that it was at home. There are too many things that I need to be finishing that even on the day that I should be preparing for vacation I was actually doing it! Great Right?!! (troll face) Well the first days weren't any great really not great but then it wasn't the basis of the days to come, thankfully. On Tuesday I cancelled something that I really regret doing so but then I had to because of the flow of events going against the current of how I wanted it and I guess that's normal; however on Wednesday I had the real vacation. On Wednesday me and all my other relatives went to my fathers hometown in Quezon and though things didn't turn out to be as we planned it the vacation was somehow a real vacation compared to the starting days. There in Quezon all I did were the things that I really couldn't do at home. In Quezon I went swimming but just for two times partly because of my ignorance on knowing how to swim for a long time but mostly because of the fear of going dark :P Also there in Quezon for four days I went jogging almost every morning and of course playing basketball; I played with my cousins and there was not a game we actually loss well that's because one of my cousin is really good, way better than I am. Now all of those are the good sides of the vacation in Quezon but there was a bad side and maybe that's my cousins drinking haha! all of them drink except me yet I am proud to say that even though I was tempted a lot of times I was able to actually resist. :) 

Vacation was really fun and back home I brought 2 starfishes as souvenirs and although it is yeah cruel well it was dieing so I took it made both as like statues and the small one into a key chain and gave it to someone in exchange for a souvenir from where she came from during vacation. The vacation was fun but the drawbacks are now coming to me and that includes doing my all of my homework in all different subjects but since I've done most of it already it is pretty lighter compared to if I actually did not do my assignments in advance.

It was a really really great week last week; imperfect as it was, it was still really fun and enjoyable and I hope to experience it more in the near future. This week is about to end and I hope it ends well. Proms next...wonder what's laid for me. 

:) Smile Always :)

April, What Do You Have?

Here I am again writing a blog entry for the past week and honestly I'd rather choose making up blog entries than doing take home school work; I mean seriously what they are doing are inhumane. They give so much work on what is supposed to be a vacation week not thinking that we have more than 5 subjects. Now if what they would complain would be the past stressful week for the them then that's total bs because students do get stress too; or if they would reason out that we have a week off so we have to study the lessons that we are supposed to be studying during the given period of time then I say, "Wth! The Easter break was already in plan months before so they could've figured out a way to somehow fix the lesson plans". I am totally not against what some of my teachers have done, giving us tons of work, but I'm trying to be real here; I truly understand that a teachers work is so difficult and I seriously have had witnessed their toiling with my bare eyes and I do pity them at times when they get so much work but please I beg that they understand that a students life is no easier than a teachers if everything would be taken into serious consideration. Students do have a stressful life and we also, like the teachers, need time to relax and be free from school but it won't be possible if even in our prized breaks they give us darn school work and not just school work but really long ones!

Anyway I did not notice I wrote so much about how I am feeling right now but thank God I sort of released the fumes that was in my head for quite some time already.So going back to what I am really supposedly going to talk about, the past week has passed and it's already the first day of March. Anyway last week was a real blast of stressful events. There was the play which was really stressful for all of us and personally thinking, to me more because of all the necessary preparations that needs to be done and finished at least in my department, the props; the next day there was the music fest which was for me stress free because of my transparency in the event (I didn't join) and also on that day were the fruits of our labor plucked. We got 3 awards for our play, the second best play I'd say in terms of awards and frankly it's not bad. People may say that our play isn't good and hell yeah it is not good but then when we ask people how they found the play and whenever they say it's good, that they would've chosen it the best play if they had the power to it touches our hearts, my heart,  that no matter how imperfect it was, no matter how many mistakes we did we gave a hell of a good play for them to enjoy. Rubricks are guides, grades just numbers they will all fade but the memories that we left the people with our very first real play would stay for as long as the world will.

So after that was a day of class and another 2 days of hmmm I wouldn't say fun but let's just say it that way. We had this sort of campaign that we would help the CSO by setting up personal class booths and giving around 20 percent of the income. At first we had no darn idea but then someone had this thought of sending messages for a low cost of 5 pesos and I think it was me or maybe somebody else but anyway we spent nothing but we earned 522 pesos and though that is very small compared to the rest it was very much nice to see that with just plain hard work we did it. Also last but not the least we had this last day of activity and we bagged in some pizza party and hopefully a cake and ice cream parteaaah too.

This past week was fun and fun wouldn't be fun if it was not for the teeny weeny efforts of each and everyone in the institution of MIT and I am so glad that we got through all of these. Thank you to all the teachers and the students who made the past week possible and most specially to God.

Happiness is  truly a choice and though still kind of pissed from the too much unreasonable work I guess I will have to submit to the authority of the teachers meaning I will have to do this still but hopefully if ever they read this blog entry they would learn from this if they would. One friend said though you have all the reason to frown it would always be best to smile on the inside; thanks to her 'cause if not I would be not typing any of these and totally not doing any of my homework.

:) Smile Always :)